Signs

It shouldn’t amaze me, but I always find myself in awe when God reveals that He is answering my prayers…even if it’s in small steps. I guess He always answers prayers even if it’s not the answer I want, but when I see something that I’ve been praying so hard for (that seems so completely impossible) make one tiny little step forward, I am so encouraged and grateful. God is good…all the time.

A necessary EVIL

I dislike politics. Actually, let me rephrase. I despise politics. I don’t care what side of the fence you fall on or if you’re comfortable getting a major wedgie from sitting in the middle.

We live in a representative democracy, but who do our politicians actually represent? They certainly don’t represent you or me. They represent their party. I have no confidence that any of our politicians would do something because they actually believe in it. There are lobbyists and party pressure and a whole host of other factors that play into decisions – none of which touches on whether or not it’s actually the right thing to do.

We do need politics. It is a check and balance system, but the system is so polluted with egos, ulterior motives and a complete lack of respect that betting on a fist fight at the next congressional gathering may actually have some good Vegas odds. :-/

 

It’s a new day!

One moment

Each day I live
I want to be 
A day to give the best of me
I’m only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown
I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I faced the pain
I rise and fall,
Yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I’m more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I’m racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free.

Fall!!!

Though we are smack dab in the middle of summer, I can feel it coming – the cooler breezes, the smell of pumpkin spice, the taste of hot apple cider, the decorative red, orange and yellow leaves.  I am already anticipating Autumn. Everything just seems better come September.

 

 

It’s a new day… just a little too hot.

July 4

For sacrifices

I’m eternally grateful

Long live our freedom

Friendship Lost

Once upon a time we were friends.

We hung out, watched stupid movies and talked without end.

But through a chain of unknown events, you have changed your mind.

No more talking, no more laughing, nothing of the kind.

You’ve assumed an awful lot and let others influence your thought

You never even asked me what was truth and what was not.

So now we’re left with nothing which is fine for you I see

But letting go of friends is not an easy thing for me.

Your wish is my command and you’ll never hear from me again

But it’s a tragedy since once upon a time we were friends.

Tick Tock

 Someone I went to high school with died last week. I’m not sure what the circumstances were. I didn’t really know him very well, but it’s sobering to realize he was less than a year older than me. Life is so short. I don’t often contemplate my own mortality, but I’m aware that time is ticking down. I only have so much time on this earth to make a difference.

I stood outside this morning and deeply breathed in the muggy air of home. I took a moment to bask in the early morning rays, and time seemed to freeze for one second. Life is such a gift. I am so thankful.

 ’Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

Anna Nalick: Breathe

It’s a new day…appreciate it.

Direction?

I’d like to know where I’m going. I’d like to know my great purpose in life. I know first and foremost it’s to serve God, but how or where or in what fashion, I have no idea. I’m one that likes to have a plan at least when it comes to the big decisions. Jumping ship without knowing if there’s another one waiting for me scares me and frankly is none-to-smart. But I keep getting the distinct impression that that is exactly what I need to do. It’s crazy and it makes no sense, and because I’m always thinking about consequences etc., I keep wondering if I’ll come to regret making some big leap. But then I think about how little time I have on this earth and that why shouldn’t I take a risk when the reward for me and others could be so great?

I pray that God guide me. I pray He open and closes doors. I pray I have the courage to actually walk through them.

 

It’s a new day…take a risk.

Middle Ground

I’d love to be rash and impulsive and live in the moment. The problem comes when you have to deal with all the moments following the impulsive and rash one. To a certain degree, I do admire those who simply live for today. I’m always thinking about consequences and repercussions. Because while I do want to experience life to the fullest, I want it to be a full life and not just a few full days. I don’t know. I guess it’s everything in moderation, but finding that middle ground is a lot harder than it appears.

 

It’s a new day…live it.

The Drive

Everyone has a motive. Whether it’s good or bad makes no difference. In fact, most people are motivated by what they think will be best for themselves. Too often we fool ourselves though. We want to believe our intentions are pure. You can believe you’re just taking advantage of an opportunity when in reality you’re trying to run away from something else. You can think you’re just a social butterfly when you’re really too scared to be alone.

I bet if each person would sit down and truly think about their motives for any given situation, he or she would be amazed at what their reasons – their real reasons –  really are. It may cause an underlying change.

 

 

It’s a new day.